It was a difficult decision . That made me realize that I can make decisions that could change other people’s lives. The decisions was to be me when the going was getting tough. when the turbulences in life took toll from the realistic expectations and calmness. This decision changed how I looked at things. It made me realize that there are many options out there. hidden in a place so dark that only you can only find it ; by following the guiding light of your heart and soul . The decision of being me was a tough one. Specially when there are rivals who oppose to such things. Who believe that you are a person who needs to be kept under the carpet, without letting them come out of the same.
They got it wrong. I made a decision. I made a decision to be free of all the calamities, the disturbances of the outside , of the demented worlds and people that surround me from time to me. I decided to be me for a change.
It has made me happy. More than ever I have been in my entire life.
It was irrational behavior , he might have thought. Yet loving her is the only thing he only wanted to do. Although she belonged to someone else. He knew he couldn’t have her. Taste her at his own wish. The only thing he could do is look from far and appreciate her beauty. and “believe ” he is in love with her. “believe” that she loves him back. Yet, she didn’t even look at him. She didn’t even say a “hello”. But he thinks she will do it someday. The man want her . but he cannot have her. Yet he looks into the yonder and wish upon her. As she walks away down the isle. With another man. That used to be his best friend.
I see you in my dreams everyday. Even though you are still around, you are still far away. Your eyes talking to mine in the dark, in day light , both eyes are shut. The memories linger, it haunts me like a ghost , every day and every night. Dear Father, I miss you , even though you are so close to me. is it fate ? or is it reality? I will never know. All I know is one thing. I love you..
If my thoughts are heartless, then you are the convict of creating them. Those illusions drove me to the depend of emotions. It created anxiety, it created a wrath that began as a seed and grew into a poison tree. You made me who I am today. For that, I am going to say to you. “THANKS!!! “
The mind is a devil’s workshop encompassed by skin , morals and learning’s. Yet the devil does come out from time to time, gluing itself on souls without a warning. Generating dark emotions , desires and thoughts. Yet, we control ourselves, willingly or unknowingly. This defines the reason why life is a mystery, Our mind doesn’t know what it does sometimes . So the question arise. Do we know what life really means?
Heart yearns for your warmth again. A touch of your hand, the hearing of your voice , calling me “son”. The look in your eyes and your unconditional , loving smile. The soul yearns for all of that. Yet, time has turned tables on us and we remain detached , even though we are very close to each other. Life can be unforgiving sometimes, it is a god’s creation and a devil’s workshop who takes controls of our emotions and well being. Time has done a life size movie on us. And I only urge, hope and pray one thing. That this movie will have a happy ending.